I tapered to 20mg. of Celexa on July 6 and the withdrawals continue without much change. I have episodes where I have difficulty with my breathing; sometimes labored breathing and other times fast breathing, probably due to a panic attack. Those don’t last long, but the labored breathing does. I still have Chorea movements made worse with stress, loud noises, sensory changes of any kind.
I tried driving today again and I won’t do that again. Cars moving beside me and even houses going past me made me feel dizzy, disoriented and scared that I was not going to make it down the road in a straight line. After we got into Trail I let Doral drive to the other places we were going to. I want so badly to be normal again and do things I used to do. But I must have patience with the process of healing and endure the withdrawals a bit longer and have faith that everything will turn out well in the end.
I still have insomnia, chorea movements, sweating/chills, dizziness, headaches, burning sensations in various parts of my body, but always in my head, blurred vision, sensitive to light and sound, flu-like symptoms such as achy joints and muscles, low-grade fever, ringing in the ears. My brain seems to be slow to respond to changes. Like from doing one thing after another quickly. If I am given a decision to make while I am thinking of another thing, I can’t make the transition, but become confused and overwhelmed. I find this very distressing, and frustrating. I have difficulty with concentration, memory, mood changes.
Another two months and I will be finished with the drug, but not the withdrawals as it will still take time to get all the medication out of the fat cells. I am trying to lose weight, and I am finding it difficult . I am very impulsive sometimes and eat something I shouldn’t before I stop and think what I a doing. I try not to be hard on myself and try again the next day to do better.
I have been exercising still for my hip replacement, but forget to do it as much as I should. I have become busy with my cosmetic business and serving a service mission with Family Search through The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saint. Both of these things are helping me endure the withdrawals.